WHEN A BIRD SINGS....

I have had two different people call me out this week about my reluctance for help/assistance.  About the forthcoming of my independent spirit and my desire to do it alone.  I have to acknowledge that this is something that I am working on. I have a very strong spirit.  I am committed to making sure that my life is in my hands.  I want to make sure that I have given myself a fair shot and put forth all the effort I have to get me where I want to go (where is it that I want to go? Umm, that I am still discovering).   However, sometimes my strong spirit gets in the way of accepting help from others.  I am really not sure where this independent mind of minds came from.  Maybe it has something to do with being the oldest child.  I have always wanted to do things "on my own." But I do acknowledge, that no success, no hurdle I have crossed, was done all by myself. I think sometimes I am afraid of showing vulnerability.  For whatever reason, I...

What does it mean to have a trip of a lifetime? Well, I suppose my visit to Bangkok, Thailand would describe such a trip.  I am still in disbelief that the little brown girl from West Oakland made her way all the way across the world.  I've been dreaming of Thailand since my days of training in Muay Thai at Cheetah Muay Thai Academy.  I can't say for sure what drew me into the culture.  However, I do know that at the time, my gym was an extension of my family.  First of all, I truly enjoyed training. And secondly, my trainer was just the best.  He was definitely like a big brother to me.  He took my goofy, clumsy self in and turned the skinny girl into a fighter!  Since those days, I had long to visit Thailand.  And this year (well technically last year) it happened!  I said at the beginning of 2015 I would bring in the new year in Thailand, and that's just what I did. Bangkok, Thailand. Huge metropolitan city.  So much going on. ...

I just want to take a moment and thank the creator for the Black man.  Thank you for bringing such beauty, strength, will power, body, determination into our lives. (I almost used a stock photo for this post, but then I thought..wait, I have hella beautiful a** Black men around me...miss these guys  *insert emoji kisses* )

So I would think that this is likely the last book review of the year for me. I finally finished this book "You Look Like Something Blooming: A Memoir of Divination Seeds to Cultivate Your Feminine Garden Temple" by India Ame'ye.  About a year ago, my mom sent me a super nice poetic piece about the Yoni aka Nana aka P*ssy and I just fell in love with the author. She was just so frank and her words so powerful...speaking from one goddess to another goddess. So, I had seen that she was releasing a book, and I thought I must have it.  When I first started the book, it was hard for me to follow.  That's because India has a very non-traditional way of writing. At first it frustrated me, and I put it down.  Then I decided, well she does have some good and different content, so let me push my mind to think differently about the book. What I enjoyed most is India's comfort with her body.  She is very much in tune with her temple and does what she can to nurture i...

I live in a country where we acknowledge Bruce/Caitlyn Jenner as woman of the year, Charlie Sheen announces HIV status on TV,  Rachel Dolezal makes national news for pretending to be Black,  and Beyonce makes a commercial to play during the super bowl to announce that she's vegan. LIKE, WTF! I'm just saying.  I need to do a better job at really eliminating this pop culture sh*t. Because I do have a choice.  And I have been falling in line, I must admit. But, man...I just can't take this sh*t no mo'. LOL (shoutout to my inability to spell out profanity, lol, I just feel tacky doing so. And if you ever see me do, sh*t just got real. LOL)

If there is one thing that I know for certain, is that there are so many realities among us all.  It is so many ways to live this human experience.  So when questioning, what is right or what is wrong? How does one do so? The beauty of life is that no one has the answer. Well, see..even some would dispute me about that one. LOL. I find it very interesting that we are building relationships everyday with people who may or may not share our beliefs about "reality".  Like, what is the purpose of this human experience? Like, what is the most robust way of living? How do we build these relationships and come together, and value each other's stance on what reality means for each other.  How important is it to build with those who do not share your stance on reality? What impact does it have to only surround yourself with like consciousness? I think about this as a person who carries a lot of passion in what I have presumed to be my reality so far.  I say that beca...

I woke up this morning with a heavy heart.  For a couple of different reasons.  So, the first thing I did was meditate.  I felt that it was important that I center myself.  And bring down my emotions and calm my heart.  Then I played a series of gospel songs because for me its inspirational music.  It feels good to the soul whether I identify with the Christian religion or not, its purely GOOD SOUL music.  It awakens the spirit.  Checking my daily news, and the Paris attacks are everywhere.  More videos of terrorist threats. Retaliation strikes. Deaths. Sadness. Fear.  You see on popular social networking, with people pouring out their support and sympathy.  You see others recognizing and calling out all the other atrocities that has happened (a lot to a people of color) that has not gotten this level of attention or media coverage. Value of life. 1st world, "2nd world" (okay, what is that). 3rd world.   Governments,...