WHEN A BIRD SINGS....

Photo Taken by Daddy, Edited by Mommy Well what a journey this has been! I would say it doesn't feel like it has been that long, but I would definitely not be telling the truth. LOL. It has been very long, but I am not rushing it. I want him to take the time he needs to be fully developed, strong and ready to go. Photo Taken by Uncle Roy; edited by Mommy At this point, I am about 95% prepared for his arrival. I have taken the hospital visit, birthing classes, crib and baby things are up and organized, bookcase is being constantly filled, interview with pediatricians this week, etc etc. I have to pack my hospital bag, but I am not going to over do it. My main essentials are my wireless speaker because I need some good music bringing life into this world, a candle because I want a nice aroma, and other lady essentials because I don't want to get caught up feeling gross. LOL The body is tired! I am still working however; but the body is tired. It is like my mind can...

Art in the back is so representative of this experience. Local DC Artist Officially 8 weeks away! I'm getting more excited everyday just to see this little boy of ours. My pastor continues to remind me that "when a child is born, so is the mother." I am still having a hard time imagining what this means to be someone's mother. Although, I have 'mothered' the cutest little yorkie for 9 years, lol, I only imagine this experience being so much differently.   At this point, I am mostly just tired. Like tired all the time. Like tired and easily annoyed. Like tired and don't want to be bothered. Like tired! LOL. I am looking forward to maternity leave. I am not rushing my delivery, I just want to be at home, cuddled up and eating, lol. My mom got me this 'maternity ball'. It is basically the big ball in any gym/exercise room. OMG, this things works wonders. The lower back pain is something serious. But sitting on this ball and moving around helps...

My 3 loves! So, I am officially 6 months pregnant! Woohoo! Thank God for the journey so far. (technically at this moment, I am 27 weeks, took me a week just to get this blog out, don't judge me lol) At this point, we have had our baby shower. Because of a previously planned trip to California, we decided to take full advantage. Thanks to my mom, Courtney and Coco, the baby shower was exactly what I needed. We are so grateful to everyo ne that came out and contributed to the welcoming of Baby Bam.  It was also very funny for people just trippin' out on Raven being pregnant. Good times.  Well, I am definitely noticeably pregnant at this point. Its no hiding that. During this period, I am mostly focused on getting exercise apart of my routine. This is not easy. When you work full time and get home; honestly, all I want to do is eat and sleep. But, I have been pushing through at least 3 times a week with doing a pregnancy workout video or taking a long walk. What I do k...

Its only right....my favorite would have the perfect song for my Bam Bam...." You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinitely Boy, don't you know you can't escape me? Ooh, darling because you'll always be my baby"

So, I am officially 20 weeks along. At this point, I have adjusted to this new (yet, very temporary) body of mines. My symptoms have mostly settled down; besides, the occasional nausea, moodiness, back pains, tired. Okay, okay, okay...lol, guess I am still feeling pregnant. LOL. But for the most part, I feel like my normal self.  Now, everyone wants to know...have I felt the baby moving yet? Well, I will say yes. But, I haven't felt major kicks yet. The movement that I have felt is sort of hard to explain. It feels like movement lol. Like a shallow "thump" here and there.  The next big thing is..."so what are you having?" We found out this week it is a bouncing boy!!! Marvelous is definitely excited. I would say, I had not had my mind set on either or. I initially always thought I wanted a boy. Why? Well because I always felt more masculine than feminine. And I felt more comfortable with the idea of raising a boy than a girl. I was not comfortable with my ...

Not really knowing what to expect when you decide to make commitments.. But what I have learned about love is that you have to be open to "being loved".. I have loved plenty.  However, being loved in the most genuine way was initially difficult... I am talking about love you don't have to fight for.. Love that comes running for you.. Love that makes you a priority.. Love that do whatever it takes to make you feel secure. This love came in a package sent to me by God... I was resistant after first, but when I removed my rose-tented glasses, I was able to see all I ever needed to see.. It didn't take a ring for me to know I wanted to commit (but that's cool too - in my hoodrat voice).. Once I made the decision to create life with him, I made my commitment there. I do not make these decisions lightly and I cannot predict the future.. I can only say in this present day...I am content, I am happy and I am willing.. I love you my Marvelous...

So, at this point, I look obviously pregnant. However, I am still getting those looks from folks where they aren't too sure, so they just decide to stay silent. But, I do have folks that just come out with it "are you pregnant?" Well, luckily I can respond yes! lol because that would be totally embarrassing for all parties.  My cravings have mostly settled down (besides the urge for the $1 McChicken and the occasional frozen hot pickle lol). But, my appetite is just all over the place. It is like when I hear something, then I instantly want it. But that could also change. So, I am still not cooking as much as I would like, but I put forth the effort mostly for the man in the house. He be missing my cooking lol. The pregnancy hormones do have me bugging sometimes. I get extra emotional about stuff. I am already a very emotional person; although, I have a hard exterior. I cry quite often lol. And now it doesn't take much for someone to hurt my feelings or for me to ...

OMG! Something pretty unbelievable has happened.....I am pregnant! It is like a whirlwind of emotions. But I am excited to finally let people know. The longest 12 weeks ever! What a way to get me back blogging more regularly. I would love to share my experience, not only for public consumption, but mostly for the baby to view one day (after learning how to read at a very early age of course ;). Also, it will be good for me, so that I can remember, cherish and reflect on the journey. Sooooo......the first 12 weeks! How did I find out? Well, let's just say this...it was no accident. My boyfriend and I had decided that we would start to try. So, I got rid of my last packs of birth control pills, downloaded an app called "Flo" which tracks your ovulation and ordered an ovulation kit (March 2018). Well, we never got to use the ovulation kit because the app worked pretty well. I was a bit nervous about this "getting pregnant" situation because since I have been ...

Yes, so it is a new year. A chance to start the year of with a new start, with a new state of mind,  with new in tentions. I have to have a better year than last year, I just have too. Last year, yes, there was some beautiful moments, but when I think it through, geez it was pretty rough. I only worked for half of the year. And in that half of the year, I was super stressed. I was so depressed. And I was having a hard time finding help. Real help. I was in a very low place, but I was making money. I realized more and more that money does not rule me. And yes, sometimes money can make life easier, but it doesn't when it comes to stress. It can make life really feel like sh*t. I felt very alone also. Because most people just didn't understand what I was going through. Most people cannot understand someone else's level of stress. Because we all handle and process our problems very differently. So what may seem small to you, can be explosive to me and vice versa. For a long ...

Yep! So I tried it, ya know...one of those internet fitness craze. Its called Resultsin28days.com. The reason I tried it was because 1st: it was super cheap (about $40), 2nd: I was convinced with the routine, it looked simple enough and the food regiment was something that I was used to when I am on my conscious eating hype, 3rd: I looked at the before and after pics, and they looked believable. I know I needed something. My body was getting out of control. I just hated how I was looking and feeling in my clothes. Most important, I was become less and less comfortable with myself. I had a conversation with a girlfriend about us both feeling the need to get rid of our half-shirts. Knowing, it's one of my favorite clothing items. So, I said...forget that! I am getting back in control of this body of mines. Okay, the Exercises. So the exercises are fairly simple; however, I can see how it can be challenging for people who have never done any working out or may have more weight on ...