WHEN A BIRD SINGS....

HA! #shoutout to my photographer.,. Samuel Cain  http://samuelcaindiary.tumblr.com/

YES! AND I HAVE A STRONG DESIRE TO CHANGE WHAT I AM DIGESTING! I am a big eater! Like, I always want to eat.  I am confessing...food has had a hold on me for a very long time.  No matter how hard I work out, I have yet to reach what I really want to reach because of my diet intake. But, this is not about a body image thing.  I think that's the wrong focus.  Its strictly about health.  It's true, I am 30 now..lol...with age, comes different needs for the body. My body is my temple. Its the holder of my goddess spirit.  I must ensure that it is properly taken care of.  I want to make sure its getting all the RIGHT nutrients. Like really, as much as a like hot cheetos...like, what the F is that red stuff? Its tasty, but it can't be good for me.  As much as a like sour patches, what the F is a sour patch? LOL...I am tired of artificial stuff...I want to eat more from the land...ingesting natural products Here's to a new conscious way of eating...

Not only did I turn 30! I went out of the country for the first time! Whoa, that's a lot of milestones for one month.  LOL It has the girl's mind working over time.  Jamaica was everything I imagined it to be.  I felt like it was the first time I had ever went to a real beach.  Like water that blue! That clear.  A girl had to let the waves take her away as my locs flowed and filled with salt water.  The people! All this time, I questioned the Rastas I've met.  Like, how come you all are so warm? is it genuine?  And omg! Jamaicans are just like that.  Its just true to who they are.(well I speak as a woman, who most interactions were with men..sooooo...lol) I went to see the Luminous Lagoon.  Now, it has some kind on one cell microorganism in the water...that when disturbed...it glows.  I mean, the water is glowing.  Its a true magical experience.   My friend Christoper showed me his home in Race Course, Falmouth, Trel...

OMG! Today is a perfect reminder of exactly how I am feeling about life at this moment.  We work really hard to plan for our life. Well, let me speak for myself.  I do a lot of planning. Its really hard for me not to.  Although, in helping with my depression, I have worked really hard to live day to day. Not worrying about the future,because I cannot concern myself with the unknown.  I think its a true balance with living everyday and also, staying open and having some room for flexibility. Today, I woke up with a plan.  I had even dreamed of this plan.  I was going to get to the laundry by 6:30a, go to Zumba at 9am, then go to target to get me a blender, then take the bus to Farmer Joe's for my 5 day detox nutrition.  SO, I got up this morning, made it to the laundry, then realized I left my wallet at home.  I put my clothes in the machines, and ran back home.  I searched my house up and down and could not find it.  I remember havin...

One of the best days in my life was Friday, June 19, 2015.  I was, for the first time ever, able to participate in a championship parade in my city.  It was beautiful.  As a sports fan, I can finally feel what this kind of accomplishment means.  It just didn't get any better than that!! CONGRATULATIONS TO OUR WARRIORS FOR BRINGING THE TROPHY HOME! OAKLAND THANKS YOU!

THE FIT BIT!!! Listen, I am not hater...I am all about whatever motivates you to get into shape.  HOWEVER, please do not share with me your step count.  Cuz guess what, I just don't care! All these FIT BIT conversations...ugh! Sorry!

Sitting in my house...listening to music, while laying in my fresh skin for about 4 hours right now.  Just thinking about how bored I am.  Well really, how I wish I had some medicinal and could fall straight to sleep.  Its been about 5 days since I have had proper rest.  If you know me, like really know me, then you would know....its like 8 days til my birthday! And I am a birthday fanatic...So, I think the combination of being super excited about turning 30, plus my upcoming SunFest with my family, plus going out of the country for the first time is just WAAAAAYYYY too much excitement for the young Raven Willoughby (wait, did she just refer to herself in the third person? and is she continuing to do so? okay, lol...blame the lack of proper rest) Anyways...I'm like, Raven (there it goes again lol) snap out of it! Bored! Really there should be no such thing.  There is always something that you or I could be doing with our time to be productive.  So, I wrote ...