The animal spirit

Back in October, the Black Panther came to visit me in a dream...the panther has many different symbolism, but what speaks to me most is "black panther's power includes guardian energy, symbol of the feminine, death and rebirth, reclaiming of one's power".

The setting was camp grounds...a group of people around; gallivanting...I seen a shadow in the dark...I immediately felt the presence of the panther....I watched as it lurked closer....I then warned the others and they all scurried in the cabin.. I stood on the porch as the protector....the panther walked slowly up the stairs and approached me...I stood my ground...it then stood on it's hinds legs and paused for like 10 secs and we was just locked eyes....I was in a trance because it's beauty was stunning....then it pounced; I wrestled with it and it ran off....I ran in the cabin with the others....and the panther came back; looking for me.

So I worked my way through the crowd and took it on again....it took a good bite of my hand that I could feel the pain in the real world...I grabbed whatever was close, and I hit it...and hit it again... the beautiful panther ran off....we all took a sigh of relief....and I woke up to scurry off to work...

Just to end up in the Bobby Seale (famed Black Panther) conference room..

Moral of the story: thanks to the Panther, your symbolism has brought strength. I fully understand that fear is only a hurdle that one can overcome!

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