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How many of us have them? FRIENDS!!

I am going through this internal battle about me and my relationships with my friends. Its very hard. I am finding it very hard to sort my thoughts. I am not quite sure what to do? how to do it? Well here is the issue...

Have you ever felt that you are giving your friends more than what they give you? Well I live in Sacramento, and most of my friends are back in Davis or in Oakland. I do most of the keeping in contact with people. If it wasn't for me, we would probably talk and see each other only every other month or so. So I know what I should do....I should be giving people as much as they are giving me...But consider this...if everyone is giving me 50%...then what am I left with....I guess I could focus my energy on something else...like my studies, working out, life, finances...yeah, but thats boring stuff (I HATE RESPONSIBILITIES)...I do want to have fun with my friends...I hate being alone...I love being around people...so if I cut them out, then what...but if I don't then I will always have this problem.

Well I know I'm not alone...I have my family; however, they are in Oakland. My sister and I...well we are polar opposites...close in age, but we don't like a lot of the same things or the same kind of people...she considers me square...but anyways I don't think I have put a lot of energy into trying to see what it would be like if we hung out...My older cousins...well I'm not really sure...I would think that they would reach out to me more...ya know like "whats up lil cuz, ya tryna hit the club"..My boyfriend...i love him so much...but right now we are not even on the same coast....

Well I wonder...What would Jesus Do?
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  1. Ms. CorinnJuly 22, 2008 at 1:59 PM

    I enjoy your blog spot! I am a fellow blogger!

    I think there comes a point in everyone's life as we progress in age where we are unsure of the stability in our relationships with friends. Maybe it will just be a transitional period for some permanent for others. But if no one puts forth the effort to maintain the relationship, then they're probably won't be a relationship at all. I think if you can trust them and know that when you really need them they'll be there for you no matter what its what will matter the most in the long run. I hope you figure it out!

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