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True Meditation

Today it happened. It was amazing. It was unreal.  It was beautiful.

 Today I finally reached true meditation. Total body relaxation. Total free of thought. And just existing.

 I have been committed to 15 minutes of meditation since July 21st.  This morning I experience something that's kinda hard to explain.

 As I went to get up, after my meditation, its like I had no control of my body. I could barely stand on my two feet.  I had a glass in my hand, and as I wobbled to the kitchen;  I could feel that I was unable to hold myself up.  So I leaned against a wall.

 As a stood for a moment, I watched as the glass slipped right out of my hand and splattered all across my hardwood floors.  It was at that moment that I snapped out of it.

 My initial reaction "OMG, did that just happen?" LOL..I felt so accomplished.  I felt great.

 My coworker had asked, "was anything different this morning than the other mornings?" I said, great question.  It was a different morning.  I had released myself of a hold that had been on me for years.  And this morning during my meditation, it was as if my body had physically released it also.  So I was loads lighter!

 It was amazing. It was unreal. It was beautiful.

 Honestly, the week of August 10, 2015 is one of my best weeks yet.  I knew I would enjoy 30, but I am putting out good vibes that this year continues this way.

 Blessings, on top of Blessings, on top of Blessings!
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