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Complications of life...



Life is so complicated. There are many laws, rules, and orders that one feels compelled to adhere to.  What is the real difference between right and wrong? It varies, I suppose.  What is right now…in this moment, may be wrong …in this same moment, but in another location. It’s all very confusing!! Makes things really difficult.
 
 I am not a religious person, but sometimes I wish I was.  That way, it would be prescribed to me: whats right versus wrong? Then I could just move forward with the law of my religion.

In reality, there are a lot of things that shape my perspective on life.  I have my family, education, society, friends, etc.  Somewhere in the midst of those aspects, I have self! When do we recover our true self? The self that formulates our thoughts and opinions, which later turns to decisions! 

I read, well should I say scanned a piece my mother sent to me.  She understands that I am going through a difficult time.  Trying to balance the head and the heart!! I feel like my body is going crazy…equilibrium is off! Okay, anyways…she led me to this article: “Ego- The False Center”. It talks about self in two facets: The Ego, controlled by society. The Ego we are born with.  A quote that stood out to me was

"They are concerned that you should become an efficient part in the mechanism of the society. You should fit into the pattern. So they are trying to give you an ego that fits with the society. They teach you morality. Morality means giving you an ego which will fit with the society. If you are immoral, you will always be a misfit somewhere or other."

"Through the ego the society is controlling you. You have to behave in a certain way, because only then does the society appreciate you. You have to walk in a certain way; you have to laugh in a certain way; you have to follow certain manners, a morality, a code. Only then will the society appreciate you, and if it doesn't, you ego will be shaken. And when the ego is shaken, you don't know where you are, who you are."

Time, place and conditions.  These variables play a role in what’s stated above about the Ego.  Both sides of the Ego I believe.  What I believe to be right today, is not what I believed to be right yesterday or 1 month ago or even 5 years ago.  Life is always throwing you curve balls where you have to make a decision: what’s right and what’s wrong?

One minute someone says “Follow your heart”…the next minute someone says “Use your head!, Stop thinking with your emotions”.  Aren’t we all emotional beings? Isn’t thinking with my head, using some form of emotion? Are the two…mutually exclusive? When those “someones” say those things…they are too using what they believe to be right and wrong.

In participating in this thing called “LIFE” I get bogged down with these complications.  Not sure where to go, not sure where I’m headed, just trying to find my happiness.  Particularly in moments of chaos!
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  1. Rami SalaamDecember 3, 2012 at 10:56 AM

    Peace. I know that feeling very well. I've been dealing with the heart vs mind battle for a while now. From my experience, i've come to overstand that following my heart has never sent me in the "wrong" direction.

    Not easy, and i dont follow my heart as much as i need to, but i feel if you trust what your heart tells you, and move with righteousness, the confusion will disappear and your path will be clear.

    Also, though it is not "religious" so to speak, I would recommend the book "The Prophet" by Khalil Gibran. I feel some of the wisdom in there may help your spirit.

    Peace and love.

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  2. ~RaVenBaBie~December 3, 2012 at 1:08 PM

    thanks!! glad its ppl who can relate

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