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Letter to My Unborn Daughter...

[disclaimer: as you can see...I said "unborn" , but actually she hasn't even been conceived!! LOL, so please don't fill my FB and Twitter accts with "are you preggers?" questions. And for those like...*cough* Lijah...who continues to insist that I may not have a daughter, but a son...I say "whatever". Because as you can see...my unborn daughter makes me strong...so even if she only remains a figment of my imagination, she is helpful in my growth]

[to my unborn son...I love you just as much and don't think I forgot about you...but its a woman thing! And you'll understand because I only imagine you being one of the most bright, consciously aware men on the planet]

Dear Daughter,

I woke up at 5:00am this morning. With more than one thing on my mind, but one being you. Just to let you know...omg, girl! you have a lot of pressure on you and you are not even here. First, I wanted to thank you because you inspire me. You inspire me to want more and do whats best for "momma." I think about you a lot. A lot when it comes to different situations that I involve myself in. Particularly, romantic ones. Because, honestly...your mom is on top of her sh*znit!! I am making it happen for us!! So success is something like a guarantee.

But when it comes to the heart. Sweetheart, its a fragile thing. And your mom loves to give love. I love being loved also. I love to see the good and potential in people (even if it may hurt me). But every time I make a decision in these romances...I think of you. I think, would I want this for my daughter? Since I only want the best for you...it helps me!! I am trying to set the best example. So when you do grace this Earth with your presence, your mother can be a model woman for you.

In closing, I smile hard at the mere thought of you. And you are absolutely more special to me than you could ever imagine.

Mommy loves you!!

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